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Nervous Tension: The Beginning

I’ve been waiting to write this for months. Every time I try, I stare at my keyboard searching for the right words. Normally they flow so freely.

Over the past few years, I’ve tried at starting multiple blogs. I’ve written about everything from fashion, to shopping addictions, current events, and even tried for an advice column. Nothing seemed to stick. One of my favorite and more popular posts was a piece I wrote for my most recent blog, and it was about my lifelong battle with anxiety (Nervous Tension: Dealing With Anxiety).

The above mentioned post touches on my experiences as a little girl, when I first started dealing with anxiety. I was shy, had a hard time making friends, and I was uncommonly nervous. About EVERYTHING. Through high school, I battled with depression as well.

The past 10 years of my life has been rough, to say the least. Everyone faces their own challenges, and I’m not here to share mine with the intent to make people to feel bad for me, or to say my life has been any more difficult than another’s. I am here to share my story, because I believe it is incredibly important for people who deal with crippling anxiety and depression to understand that they are not alone. I am here to share my experiences, both positive and negative, in hopes my words can help myself and others heal.

Recently, I’ve been seeing more and more people on my newsfeed confronting and owning their problems with anxiety and depression, and each and every one inspires me to face mine. I’m always blown away by the courage it takes to face something like that publicly, despite the judgement it may cause. It is extremely difficult to let others see a side of you that may not be the most flattering or desirable. Sharing your innermost thoughts, exposing your flaws, and making yourself vulnerable. It’s terrifying.

I first decided to start this blog after an extremely difficult breakup in January. I was at one of the lowest points in my life even before the relationship ended. His leaving was poorly timed, to say the least. As much pain as it caused, though, it propelled me to seek help. Over the past 5 months, I’ve made incredible progress in battling my anxiety and depression, and have learned a ton that I wish to share with you all.

I will be sharing everything from flashbacks, to present anxious tendencies. I’ll be writing about my experiences with prescription medication and my road to finding a cure without prescribed medication. This is going to be my journey to conquering this piece of me that has held me back for so long.

The thoughts I will be sharing here come from the deepest, darkest part of me. I ask for any potential readers, or contributors to show respect for people dealing with similar experiences.

This is The Nervous Street.

3 thoughts on “Nervous Tension: The Beginning

  1. Shawnna Haukeli Reply

    Nicely said and done your so pretty inside and out great for you such a big help when you can express

  1. Anon Reply

    hi!! I have a question! with over half of the population being diagnosed with some sort of anxiety disorder and taking medications for it and most of these people being women. What do you think is causing this huge surge in diagnosis’? Personally, I believe it to be a combination of a lot of things. i think lack of exercise is probably the biggest contributor. people spending all day behind a computer and getting no mental stimulation probably doesn’t help either. 50 years ago we were doing this, MOVING around automatically. we didn’t have to plan time in the day to exercise and now I believe we all do. the human body NEEDS to be exercised. I went thru a period where I didn’t workout at all for about 2-3 years. i was getting depressed, eating garbage and drinking a lot. i started to develop a bit of anxiety myself after living my entire life without it. My dog, if i don’t exercise her. after a few weeks she gets antsy and annoying and has to much energy and no outlet and bad behaviours start forming. body’s need to be worked. i think this is a major contributor but I’m curious if you have anything to add like personal experience or thoughts on the matter? why is anxiety so common in women specifically as well? personally i think society and other women cause this in women! think about it! look at all the pressure girls have to “be pretty” or be compassionate and dress well. girls don’t dress up for dudes, they dress up for other girls so they don’t get ostracized. the girls that say fuck everyone else and don’t let that pressure get to them i notice are the ones that don’t have anxiety. sorry for the tangent. hopefully you’ll address these points as I’m curious to see your thoughts! good luck!

    1. NervousStreet Reply

      Wow, that was quite the comment. Thank you for your questions, I truly appreciate it. Honestly, I will dive deeper in to one of the major causese of my anxiety a little later down the line. I personally have a hormone imbalance – and I can’t speak for all women, but I’d imagine something similar impacts tons and tons of other women as well.

      Exercise is something that I’ve found relief from in the past. But it is very hard to make this a habit – and this is another issue I will delve into in a future post.

      It’s funny that I’m just now reading this comment, as I hopped on today to post about the no judgement challenge, and you’re pretty on point with some of the things I covered in this new post:

      I appreciate all of your questions, and your feedback more than you know, and I hope I am able to tackle some more of your questions in future posts. You’ve touched on a lot of the topics I have plans to write about, so stay tuned 🙂 🙂

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