I’ve been waiting to write this for months. Every time I try, I stare at my keyboard searching for the right words. Normally they flow so freely.
Over the past few years, I’ve tried at starting multiple blogs. I’ve written about everything from fashion, to shopping addictions, current events, and even tried for an advice column. Nothing seemed to stick. One of my favorite and more popular posts was a piece I wrote for my most recent blog, and it was about my lifelong battle with anxiety (Nervous Tension: Dealing With Anxiety).
The above mentioned post touches on my experiences as a little girl, when I first started dealing with anxiety. I was shy, had a hard time making friends, and I was uncommonly nervous. About EVERYTHING. Through high school, I battled with depression as well.
The past 10 years of my life has been rough, to say the least. Everyone faces their own challenges, and I’m not here to share mine with the intent to make people to feel bad for me, or to say my life has been any more difficult than another’s. I am here to share my story, because I believe it is incredibly important for people who deal with crippling anxiety and depression to understand that they are not alone. I am here to share my experiences, both positive and negative, in hopes my words can help myself and others heal.
Recently, I’ve been seeing more and more people on my newsfeed confronting and owning their problems with anxiety and depression, and each and every one inspires me to face mine. I’m always blown away by the courage it takes to face something like that publicly, despite the judgement it may cause. It is extremely difficult to let others see a side of you that may not be the most flattering or desirable. Sharing your innermost thoughts, exposing your flaws, and making yourself vulnerable. It’s terrifying.
I first decided to start this blog after an extremely difficult breakup in January. I was at one of the lowest points in my life even before the relationship ended. His leaving was poorly timed, to say the least. As much pain as it caused, though, it propelled me to seek help. Over the past 5 months, I’ve made incredible progress in battling my anxiety and depression, and have learned a ton that I wish to share with you all.
I will be sharing everything from flashbacks, to present anxious tendencies. I’ll be writing about my experiences with prescription medication and my road to finding a cure without prescribed medication. This is going to be my journey to conquering this piece of me that has held me back for so long.
The thoughts I will be sharing here come from the deepest, darkest part of me. I ask for any potential readers, or contributors to show respect for people dealing with similar experiences.
This is The Nervous Street.